God is God

This Sunday afternoon was mellow. My mom and I spent some time together this afternoon. At the gas station, I flipped on the Christian radio station while she was busy filling the tank. The following song was playing. It happens to be a previous favorite; but this afternoon it took on special meaning. More than just a song... a means of seeing a glimpse of an invisible God.

And the pain falls like a curtain
On the things I once called certain
And I have to say the words I fear the most
I just don’t know

And the questions without answers
Come and paralyze the dancer
So I stand here on the stage afraid to move
Afraid to fall, oh, but fall I must
On this truth that my life has been formed from the dust

God is God and I am not
I can only see a part of the picture He’s painting
God is God and I am man
So I’ll never understand it all
For only God is God

And the sky begins to thunder
And I’m filled with awe and wonder
‘Til the only burning question that remains
Is who am I

Can I form a single mountain
Take the stars in hand and count them
Can I even take a breath without God giving it to me
He is first and last before all that has been
Beyond all that will pass

Oh, how great are the riches of His wisdom and knowledge
How unsearchable for
to Him and through Him and from Him
are all things

So let us worship before the throne
Of the One who is worthy of worship alone...

From WorshipGod 08

The following videos were just posted on the SGM youtube channel. These recitations were a powerful part of the conference for me. To hear scripture orated put life into the words. They're worth watching. I considered posting them one at a time so that the videos would be watched one at a time. Instead I'll just make a suggestion: when you watch them, watch all the way through. Stopping in the middle of the passage, I think you'd miss out.

Psalm 145


Psalm 25


Psalm 22

WG08 Opening Video

I am so glad this was posted!

It tuned my heart to worship as I sat in my seat the first night of the conference. Watching it again tonight, the way in which it so beautifully pulls together truths from the psalms was just as meaningful.

"If there's one thing to take away from this message it's this:

the psalms are about what your/my life is about."

-David Powlison, Enduring Hardship with the Psalmist

Browsing sheet music

Riches I heed not nor man's empty praise
Thou mine inheritance now and always
Thou and Thou only first in my heart
High King of heaven my treasure thou art.

High King of heaven my victory won
May I reach heaven's joys oh bright heaven's sun!
Heart of my own heart whatever befall
Still by my vision O Ruler of all.

_

Five more boxes.
Barely any snow left.
Still sick.
Books are now on the entertainment center in the basement instead of in some of the above mentioned boxes.
Looking at my ice skates in my closet and wanting to use them soon!

Leaning on the Lord

Today was such a mixed day.
I felt like I wanted to pout and cry and after about 3pm crawl into my bed just like a beetle under a rock. I kept going throughout the day with the thought that I had the Vday party to go to. It was canceled because of weather. My school was brushed aside priority wise in my mind due to other consuming thoughts and household stuff. I still feel like a dark abstract painting inside--hard to figure out exactly what the point of it is. It's just a big mess of color & yet you know it has a purpose; you know it's a piece of art whether you understand it or even like it. In all of that, I couldnt completely stop and be a beetle. I couldnt justify it. Everytime I wanted too, something positive came into my path and spurred me into doing some work. I didnt become Miss Diligence and get tons of work done, but I didnt let the day be a complete failure either.

I said to Mum today, "Sometimes I wish I could just stop doing school. And stop worrying about doing it. and getting it done. Completely stop. Or maybe not stop the learning, but take away all the stress and organization from it." Mum's response was, "Seems easy enough to me. Just stop worrying. Why are you worrying over it in the first place?" My thought isnt realistic really...

It snowed today. tons! I have been wishing for snow and the Lord knows how much I enjoy seeing it. I didnt play in it though...remember the wanting to crawl into bed feeling?

I was doing algebra homework and decided to listen to a Hillsong cd that had a nice coating of dust on it before I snapped it into my cd player. At this moment I forget what song came on, but I just closed my eyes and lifted my hands to the Lord. The song just rushed over me and in the middle of math homework--I was worshipping. I was comforted in realizing that the Lord knows how I am feeling right now and understands my heart so much deeper and better than I do.

I've still got biology reading to day. And an entire chapter on the Protestant Reformation to read in history. I've got to read six pages in my speech book. I've got to read all I can possibly absorb in my literature anthology. I've got to finish my current event essay. I have a test in the next few days in both Bible and history. The cherry on top is my creation science research. That's not meant to be a complaint--just an assessment.

I didnt work hard today on my schoolwork. I just squeaked and slid through the day. That's the honest truth. I wasnt focused. I need blinders like a horse in order to do that. On a positive note, I did make some creative strides. I made a beautiful yet quirky paper rose and made progress on the little felt robot dudes I am making for Steve and Dave. I've got to remember to take pictures on my projects. I want to compile a portfolio eventually. I give people gifts all the time and forget to document it through photography for myself.

Isaiah 40:17-20

When the poor and needy seek water, and there is none, and their tongue faileth for thirst, I the LORD will hear them, I the God of Israel will not forsake them. I will open rivers in high places, and fountains in the midst of the valleys: I will make the wilderness a pool of water, and the dry land springs of water. I will plant in the wilderness the cedar, the shittah tree, and the myrtle, and the oil tree; I will set in the desert the fir tree, and the pine, and the box tree together: That they may see, and know, and consider, and understand together, that the hand of the LORD hath done this, and the Holy One of Israel hath created it.

that's a good thought...